One of my first inspirational teachers was Caroline Myss. Her book The Creation of Health opened my eyes to the connection between health and energy and how our thoughts & beliefs can manifest into disease in the body. At this same time, our culture was just starting to become aware of the failings of the traditional medical system.  In the early 1990s, maybe you thought your doctor was your God. We had all been conditioned to believe this, yet it wasn’t really working that way.  Our belief in our authority figures was starting to dissolve and crumble. Giving over our choices to disease and disease care to others without addressing the whole person just didn’t have the same magic anymore for many as it had; people were seeing results that seemed incongruent when they took back their power and facilitated healing practices. Just how can someone spontaneously heal cancer or alleviate symptomology that has been present for a long time?

The ability to look at our energy and connect the dots to the disease pattern by these energy leaks was fascinating to me. I was on a health and nutrition quest, after learning the power of taking charge of my own health using *gasp* nutritional supplements.  My family and friends thought I had jumped into the loony bin, convinced I had joined some cult.  However, the traditional methods were not offering relief to my fairly minor but chronic health challenges.  As I began to shift and offer my body more of what it needed to thrive, I also began changing my thoughts about being in authority…and this eventually led to recognizing my own spiritual authority. For this learning, I am eternally grateful for the content Caroline has shared.

So, many books later, Caroline still shares captivating messages to unravel in my spiritual understanding. Her work is deep and not light reading.  Her message at sea was to stop clinging to stories and mythology and seek a direct experience with God. We are asking mystical questions without changing our lives, which led her to say to the audience, “Why do you want to be clear?”

She went on to discuss the soul and ego being on a completely different compass. The ego or pleasure based spirituality vs. service based soul with stamina. If you are seeking to heal the past and get stuck there, you will never move past your history. She offered that to build a soul with stamina, we need to yield and stand in our pain at times. We have built a culture where all pain “is wrong”, drugging a dark night of the soul instead of acknowledging that all is as it should be.

Caroline reminds us of our woundology: Damn you, can’t you see I am suffering? And you should be suffering too! The rational thinking mind has a “woe is me” focus. We (our ego) want a witness, to blame someone yet our irrational transformations can come as a channel of grace when we stand solidly in all aspects of shadow. This spiritual pain can be a teacher. By forgiveness and surrendering to the experience as it happens, without the need to know why, we achieve grace and healing. The soul must be stronger than form.

She went on to share her studies of the writings of The Interior Castle by Teresa of Ávila and the extreme mystical experiences she experienced (in Caroline’s latest book Entering the Castle). Our ego stays focused on humiliation and betrayal yet the act of release and forgiveness for no apparent reason allows surrender. Once past your mind, you can enter the interior self. The question she raised regarding inner work: why you are afraid to let God near you?

She states that most are not ready for the speed of light of healing, so that we slow it down to handle. A spiritual practice of Reflection, Contemplation, Prayer and Devotion allows us to listen to the voice and the commands it offers.  We don’t need to ask why, just to BE and do what is asked BECAUSE we have been asked. If we are listening to our soul, and not our ego, we are given deep and profound inner guidance.  There is grace which she defined as the courage to handle the capacity to accepting the healing light.  Caroline reminds us to think of the story of Jesus and The Garden of Gethsemane.

Because we fear humiliation and betrayal, we

-don’t step up and out
-let others ideas of us control our behavior
-not wanting to feel stupid, brag and boast to feel superior @ minor victories
-are afraid of being our true self and not being accepted; want to be liked and conform to society
-become judgmental and humiliate them first

We look at the word humble in the dictionary, it really means being true to yourself. So, which voice will you listen to? She asks: Are you betraying your own voice? You are not your childhood. Go with the speed of your life, be content or else you are betraying your integrity. Caroline used the example of being unemployed: you are being called to find your creative work and expression. This is what you must focus on.

Again, she stresses that most people cannot handle the speed at which they can heal.  By experiencing God through spiritual practice, moving from an intellectual …to spiritual …to divinity experience you can tap into a channel for grace. Act on what you receive for the speed of light, by deepening your spiritual practice you can BE at the speed of light and be ready to serve when asked. This is your soul, not your ego.  Her key message here is: Have the experience of God vs. talking about God.

A supportive tool that I can offer…and have been asked to share will help you deepen and anchor your own spiritual practice. Visit http://www.a-month-of-sundays.com/ to learn more about written and audio inspirational affirmations that connect you with a consciousness of spirit.  In direct communication, I wrote this material in a language you will surely recognize.

In Light,

Jennifer Weggeman